Wednesday, March 31, 2004

Yeah, this has been like the longest night ever! I sat on the berm from around 6:30 to 8:00. Now I am waiting for Sarah to get ready so we can have breakfast together before class... She is taking forever and a day!
Yeah, Sleep is not coming tonight, or this morning. The crazy birds have been singing all morning...Since like 5...I may go out and join them. What a beautiful morning for sitting on the berm!
If you were here right now...I would give you a hug!

Ok, now I am sure I am sleep deprived...Somebody shoot me!!!
Is it worth going to bed if you are going to get less than three hours of sleep???
My RA is the best RA in the whole wide world!!! I went out to get a drink and was moseying around our lobby when she poked her head in. Upon seeing me she asked if I was alright and then gave me cough syrup, nyquill, and dayquill. How random was that...her being up at five in the morning! I have a great and mighty God watching out for me!
The other funny thing, my roommate says I am too loud, but she slept through this whole thing...but my suitemate heard and came to see if I needed anything...I had my inhaler by then, but still...how strange...
My chest still hurts! Its still hard to breath. I am still coughing. I am afraid to go back to sleep. I shall pray and trust God that I will wake up tomorrow. Goodnight ya'll.

When having an asthma attack...It can be compared to the feeling of an elephant sitting on your chest, while you have a vice grip around your neck blocking your airways. Others describe it as the feeling of a fish out of water, but I like my description better.
Well, I did not think I would have time to update this so close to that sarcastic remark, but alas sleep eludes me. I have been sick so this will probably not be the most happy post but it may turn out all right in the end.
Tonight I woke up coughing and unable to breath, tossing and turning in my bed. Normally at home, someone wakes up and starts forcing me to do things like sit up, and hand me my inhaler and are generally very helpful. When I wake up without being able to breath, sometimes I seem to be in a middle stage between awakeness and asleepness, I am aware of my surroundings but seem totally helpless and unable to do anything. Like I know I need to sit up, but I cant make my body work. Here my mind was going through the possibilities of someone wonderful coming to help, like my mother, and it looked rather dim, the fact being that she is in CA right now and I am not. Well, the whole time my brain is doing this wonderful thinking my body is still missing one important thing...Air. I am still coughing so hard I am almost gagging, when suddenly I manage to stop coughing and can lie still and rest for a moment, as long as I don't try or want to breath...And I being the very demanding person I am try to get some more air, thus causing me to start coughing and gasping and flopping again. All the while my brain is moving at a hundred miles per hour. I also had the sudden realization that I was in my bed here at school thus I was not as close to the ground as I would care for it to be, and falling would just hurt. So, I not being able to breath and all, I somehow made it to the bottom of my bed and to the ground, I was shocked that I made it, and ran to my purse where I knew my inhaler would be. Now, not saying anything against women's purses, but we do tend to carry around a lot of useless junk! Normally I can get to my inhaler in a jiffy and never have a problem, but when you are coughing and cant breath and you grab your purse in a dark room, it of course the stuff you want has to be a little harder to find. I slightly dump my purse and find the inhaler, yay!, then I get to put it together. I always wonder why they did not put it as one piece, although its probably because some people only use one part. I put the inhaler to my lips and end up being able to breath in some of the medicine, well, the results are not instant as I would prefer, so I coughed more but was able to control it a little, and on the second puff I could stop coughing enough to catch my breath...And BREATH! I am still coughing a lot and it is still hard to breath, but I can and that is all that matters. It can be a little painful, and I can really feel it when I cough, but I am alive!
After a few experiences like that songs like "you are the air I breath" have a whole new meaning. Breathing is something that most people on this planet don't think twice about...Its just something you do. Most people don't think of every breath you take God gave you. Every time you inhale, he knows it, and every time you don't he does too. I sometimes find myself complaining about not enough free time or not knowing what classes I am going to take next semester, and why hasn't God shown me those things or given me more...When I haven't stopped to thank Him for the stuff He has given me, what He has shown me. He has given me great friends, who are there to support me and just to hangout with, and He has given me the most awesome family, I wouldn't trade any of them for the world and all its riches. He has given me the opportunity to go to a university, and a Christian one at that! My time at a non-Christian community college was enough to make me know how blessed we are to be surrounded by people who love and believe in the same God, rather than people who hate your God and try to bring you down. He has given me a prayer warrior, my grandmother, who prays for me every morning as I go about my day! I have all my needs met and He has filled my cup to overflowing. I can seriously say that I am blessed and glad to be alive! I love you all! Everyone needs hugs!

Tuesday, March 30, 2004

UPDATE!!! --there, I updated my blog, thank you very much--

Sunday, March 21, 2004

Well, I made it back from Mexico. I would have stayed there longer if I could. I made some friends and hung-out with some of the kids around the site where we were working. I was the translator and I did an alright job of it. I was able to understand most things and was able to get my point across when I wanted to. For the first two days of break I had headaches so bad that I was on my migraine pills constantly and there was little to no relief from the pain. Finally I figured out that it was the heat that was doing me in, so I used my bandanna soaked in water wrapped around my head to keep me cool and did not have headaches the rest of the trip! Well, other thingyabobs happened which I may or may not tell you about later, but as for now I am off to bed.

Wednesday, March 10, 2004

The wonders of translations...

My letter in english:
Hey everyone,
I know it has been a long time since i wrote and hope this finds you well. University has been going well, and i am enjoying my classes. I do miss you all though.
This coming week i am going on Spring break missions. I am going to Fresnillo, Mexico for the week. We leave Friday the 12 and return on Sunday the 21. It would be very appreciated if you would keep my team and i in your prayers. We are building a foundation and doing some street evangelism. I am going along as one of the translators so some extra prayer for that would be wonderful.
I miss you all, and love getting your letters!
Chao,
Rachel Gullman

Its translation in Spanish:
Hey cada uno, sé que ha sido un rato largo desde que escribí y espero esto los hallazgos usted bien. La universidad ha estado yendo bien, y estoy gozando de mis clases. Le falto todo sin embargo. Esta semana que viene voy en misiones de la rotura del resorte. Voy a Fresnillo, México para la semana. Dejamos a viernes los 12 y volvemos el domingo los 21. Muy sería apreciado si usted mantendría mi equipo e i sus rezos. Estamos construyendo una fundación y estamos haciendo algún evangelism de la calle. Voy adelante como uno de los traductores un tan que cierto rezo adicional para ése sería maravilloso. ¡Falto le todo, y el amor que consigue sus letras! Chao, Rachel Gullman

Its translation back into English:
Hey each one, I know that he has been awhile long since I wrote and I wait for this well the findings you. The university has been going well, and I am enjoying my classes. It needs everything nevertheless. This week that comes I go in missions of the breakage of the means. I go to Fresnillo, Mexico for the week. We left to Friday the 12 and we return Sunday the 21. Very it would be appreciated if you would maintain my equipment and i your prayers. We are constructing a foundation and we are doing some evangelism of the street. I go so ahead like one of the translators that certain additional prayer for that one would be wonderful. It needs everything, and the love that obtains its letters! Ciao, Rachel Gullman

Now thats just special...
Translated with: Babel Fish Translation

Monday, March 08, 2004

Some random quotes I heard (Guys, these are meant as a joke, don't be offended!) here they are:
"I wouldn't be a man hater if I ever met a man not worth hating",
"I like guys too! Just not the ones I have met.",
"The little ones [boys] are not as stupid, the ones my age are.",
"I always forget that guys are different.",
"Their just all engineers. All of them are engineers and computer people. Where are the real guys?",
"I like _____[guys name*] better than ___[guys name*], can we trade?",
"I think that _______ [Guys name*] is afraid of me." (in response to that) "that's a good sign!"

*removed as to remain anonymous.

Other random quotes:
Your a freak and a weirdo, but that's ok because we love you anyways.
Speak for yourself you loser.
don't call suicidal people losers!
Did you, um, put any punctuation in this?
The goal of the chair is to reach the perfect form of "chairness" (not the exact wording)

A new word: Gauche- rude and crude
I dont want spring break to come!!! I want spring break to come! I dont, I do, I Dont, I do. Oh well, cant do anything about it anyways. Bring it on!
Well, this weekend i stayed up all night then slept away my days. I watched Lord of the Rings- The two towers, talked, and did other weird random things. I beat Tim and Brian at cities and knights...that was fun...i could not believe that i won. Anyway, goodmornight
ok ok ok.... I do not normally finnish anything i start, and well, this blog is no exception. Life has been hard lately and it seems like i do not ever write anything happy on this strange thing. I am avoiding homework as usual and have a test tomorrow. Hey, i have procrastinated an hour so far...I am good ;-)

Wednesday, March 03, 2004

Life has been amazingly hectic... I will have to right more later... Bible journals due later this morning... I am a procrastinator, and know it.
The last three days have been completely horrible and I was so depressed and discouraged and felt tired and just so BLAH!
I went to a bible study tonight and it was soooooo awesome!!!!!!! I have never felt soo just, well, refreshed and loved. I got to know some people and it is going to be awesome. God is... Well, I cant, even with two languages, even begin to describe his... Awesomeness... Wonderfulness... Faithfulness... Oh, I could go on all day!